Updated: Dec 31, 2019
7 years ago I was hit with a draining depression that lasted for almost a year. I refused the medication offered by my doctors because I was trusting in God to deliver me from it. (Plus i was scared it was going to turn me zombie-ish.) But I was kind of half hazardly praying, and barely getting in scripture to build up my faith in the area of healing from that demonic oppression. My first lady picked up that I was depressed and she knew i wasn't going to take meds for it, so she told me to take the Word 3 times a day like I would take a prescription, so I did.
I started forcing myself to reading at least 1 scripture 3 times a day even if I didn't feel like it. I remember coming across this scripture while I was sooooo down one day. I mustard up a tiny bit of faith and opened my bible not even really expecting too much, but hoping for a breakthrough. It's found in Philippians 4:8, "Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy—meditate on these things." Now I know this scripture by heart, this is one I've seen a million times before. But I promise it jumped off the pages and hit me in my gut that day. I literally read this same exact scripture every day because I knew the war was in my mind. But it was a power that released in me that changed my entire mindset! God's Word jumped of the pages and literally came alive in me. He gave me the strength, that I didn't even have, to obey His Word. I can't take any credit for that. 🙌🏽
I meditated on this scripture day and night until I had it in me to obey it and I KNOW that this scripture delivered me. Obeying this scripture has saved my self esteem, my marriage, friendships, my sanity, and my outlook on life. People say to me alot that I'm always smiling, and I love hearing that, because now I'm glowing on the inside and it's showing on the outside... and it's real! I'm quick to tell them that God delivered me from depression and it's His joy in me.
My life isn't perfect, but I can tell you that at this point in my life, I'm grateful for it, and I'm going to enjoy it. No matter what drama, dream killers, insufficiency, or pain I experience I know that it can't break me because I'm a warrior of faith! I CHOOSE to look for the good in every situation, because no matter what, I'm blessed! And so are you!